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submission August 08, 2020 Score: 78 u/Cefitie

Extremely Frustrated

Extremely Frustrated

I’m 17 and homeless and I just want to get an education.

But I’m pretty sure the universe is telling me not to get one.

All my life all I’ve wanted is to get an education so I can live my best life.

I ended up homeless just because I wanted an education. Instead of dropping out of high school at 16 to become a housewife, I busted my butt and graduated early behind my family’s back. Long story short my mom tried to kill me and now I’ve been homeless for over a year living between shelters and the streets.

I don’t know why. But for some stupid reason I had this thought that if I work hard enough and stay focused I could get somewhere with it.

I made sure I did so. I graduated as valedictorian and applied to every college I could,tried to find odd jobs, transferred from shelter to shelter every time my time limit ran out and every single thing I could think of to do. Even asking strangers to no avail if I could just sleep on their floor until I got myself together.

And then I believed that I could possibly escape homelessness through school!

That I could take out a student loan for my first year so that I could finally have my own bed and roof to sleep under for once so I could already be 18 and get up on my feet and strive!

But again the universe disagrees.

And my TAP got denied and I can’t pass FASFA verification because I can’t prove my residency— because I’m homeless.

I don’t want a pity party. This is more-so a rant/realization.

I’m realizing that even though I didn’t live in a great home I gave up having my own bed to sleep in just for this. That I missed the one opportunity to be with my grandma— the only one who truly cared for me who passed in March just for this. And so much more.

And I truly don’t even know what to think at this point.

Perhaps being smart isn’t always about having an education, but instead realizing what’s around you is as good as it gets.

Edit:

The issue isn’t the college. It IS my fasfa. I have already applied for both TAP and fasfa. The issue is because I’m homeless at 17 I had to apply as an independent. Because of that they made me verify it. I submitted all the information required yet it’s changed nothing.

If my TAP and fasfa were approved I would be able to attend my school with no issues and money leftover.

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